Don't be so emotional akki...

I've had a lot of people tell me... "Akki, you're too emotional" or "kyun tum itna senti maarti ho?"
there are people who have stopped talking to me only cuz i'm emotional...
But ppl, this is the way i am... I am emotional. There's nothing wrong with that...
Everyone's like, akki, itna emotional hone se kaam nahin chal ta... i agree.. but its not like i'm always emotional.. its not like i'm always so "Oh My God, this or that person hurt me, or scolded me or bla bla bull shit..."

There are times jab mujhe koi farak nahin padta ki koi kuch bol raha hai.. koi kuch kar raha hai... and to see.. i'm not even remotely emotional about ppl i don't give a damn about.. im only emotional about ppl whom i care about.. people who i call.. Friends... Now i don't see anything wrong in that... and many people among them need to know that i'm not always emotional about them...

And guys.. believe me.. i've been affected enough by all these things to try not to be emotional.. and i have damn well succeeded... but they say na.. a person's fitrat (it's an urdu word which kinda means the 'main characteristics of a person'.. or the 'main idea' behind the person's thinking) doesn't change.... I don't want it to change...

A friend of mine just a while ago asked me... ' why do you care akruti, why do you care if a person is pissed off at you, or is not talking to you...' But its not about caring if the person is pissed off at me.. or whatever bull crap the person is thinking abt me...
for me its the alteration in behaviour... i don't know why.. but i get a very queasy feeling if someone's behaviour changes... i, for one, don't like changes...

But then.. its always like that.. everybody changes.. another friend of mine puts it in this way: "Akki... I'm not static.. i can't be the same always... nobody remains the same always.." But its not a change in who you are... it is the change in your behaviour that affects me...

I know for a fact that i won't be able to explain this concept to anyone... so i'll not even try... not that i haven't.. but nobody gets it... but i agree with my friend who says... why do i care..
Exactly... why do i care...

Me being emotional... atleast in front of people has to change...

Just one question though... is it really so bad to be emotional/sentimental?

Playing TAG!!!

here are a few questions answered by me and i am going to tag ppl. i have heard its fun...lets see!!
What is one weird thing about you that nobody knows till date?
When i watch a movie, i sometimes try to imagine myself in place of the charachter i really like in it.. not necessarily the protagonists.. its really fun to think what you would have done or some crap like that!!! he he

Favourite Ice cream flavour?
Chocolate... any given day i can have a yummy chocolate sundae!!!
The craziest dream you had in the past one week?
I dream that some of my classmates have turned against me and are PLOTTING MY MURDER and i was eavesdropping.. then i end up going into the room and beating them up!!! it was scary in the dream but hilarious when i got up...

One embarrassing thing you've done in public, which comes to your mind right now?
Too embarrasising to share...

Are you going to be attending MMSC (www.mmsc-manipal.com)? Why or why not?
Ofcourse... its a great event to meet new people, learn a lot of things about new media and also discuss and put forth your ideas.. i think everyone who is really interested in anything related to new media should attend it!!!

Tag atleast three other people!!! After you've posted your replies on your blog, you let me know through mine! :) and attend MMSC... its great stuff!!!

Yeh Dil Maange More!!!

People often ask me.. "Akki, were you always this fat???" and my reply is always... "No ya... i started gaining weight only after my 5th grade..."
Now don't think that i'm making an excuse or anything...

I've never been a thinny... but i was not this fat either. And the one and only reason... PEPSI... i don't know how many ppl can second me on how pepsi can be excessively addictive... but i was majorly addicted to pepsi to an extent that i had to have at least two bottles every day... every single bloody day and that's about 24 spoons of sugar on an average per day and that doesn't even include all the other things that i used to consume before and after that.
I've always had the tendency of gaining weight, but my mum started taking care of my food habits as soon as she saw that i had horrible weight gaining tendencies.. but me like a stubborn idiot, never listened to her and would just fight with her whenever she scolded me for eating something too oily, or having too much pepsi, or having excessive amount of chocolates!!! Was I an idiot... but now its too late to lament..

Anyways, back to Pepsi. I was saying how addicted i was to it and how it stimulated my weight gain even more than i could already manage... I think when you drink a lot of pepsi, its like smoking. A smoker always knows that smoking is harmful to him/her, but he/she still continues. Drinking pepsi is like that... i knew it was harmful for me.. but i still could never resist it.

And even though i don't drink pepsi and all that much anymore, give me a bottle of it and i will still indulge into it.. though i shouldn't and i will prevent addiction to it at all costs.. now when i come to think of it... 12 SPOONS OF SUGAR!!! can't imagine how much i have to run on the treadmill to get rid of all those calories... SIGH!!! why can't yummy things be healthier!?!