Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me
wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
so the real me doesn't show.
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do- that
you might laugh or say mean things
I'm afraid I might lose you.

I'd like to remove all my paint coats
to show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see
So, if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll strip off all my coats of paint real slow
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show

Now my coats are all stripped off
I feel naked, bare and cold
and if you still love me with all that you see
you are my friend, pure as gold

I need to save my paint brush though
And hold it in my hand
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn't understand
so please protect me my dear friend
and thanks for loving me true
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Until I love me too.


This was written by someone in one of the chicken soup books that i read a few months ago... and it touched my heart, cuz its something i can relate to.
In my friend Shaz's first blog post, he talks about people, and pretensions, and many other things. He asks the question.. what is being yourself? He also shows that there are many layers in a person's personality, which is a part of him/her but does not necessarily show all the time. I agree with him.
But i also say that 'Pretend' is something most of us, in the end, have to do or end up doing anyways . To fit in, to make friends, to be accepted. But when you do "remove your coats of paint" many people tend to judge you, to make fun of you, and think of you as double faced or maybe think of you as someone who just wants to "get something out of you." I'm not saying everyone does that, but many people do. Once you remove your coats of paint, there are people who will dislike or even hate who you are, but why? Why can't they just get to know you properly first, to see why you're like that.. because i firmly opine that personalities and "who-you-are" are partly caused by circumstances and situations.
Someone will say, its not necessary that you are liked by everyone, that everyone should hold a good opinion about you. Again, I agree.. but i also say "If i love myself despite my infinite faults, how can i hate anyone at the glimpse of a few?"
I don't say that i haven't had friends who have seen me after "i've removed my coats of paint" and not loved me for what i am, but i am one of the few lucky ones!!!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

The FIRST!

What's up people!!! Here i'm doing what i never thought i would do before i joined TMJ.... starting a blog.... tmj (the manipal journal) is a website i work in as a subeditor of design (pls visit www.themanipaljournal.110mb.com).
So just wait and watch what i have in store... cya!!!